Respect

I would like to take some time to pay my respects to a very wonderful and kind man named Ahwah Low. I worked at the same company as this man and we rode in the same van every morning. On january 31st 2010 Ahwah had a heart attack at 57 years old. He was only 3 months away from collecting his pension. Ahwah always asked how Aron and I were and loved to listen to the stories I told of my son.He was very kind and will be greatly missed! May he rest in peace and never be forgotten.



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I am missing my little man today, as I was walking out the door when I dropped him off at day care he said "love you!" I hate the hours I work, wish I could be a stay at home mom :( i get to pick him up in 10 hours!


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Good Day!

Ok so to write a quick update before bed, today was a pretty good day compaired to the last feiw! However I think I may have over done my self at work, I hardly got anything done this week and wanted to catch up, little did I know how tired it would make me now. So I guess I know that for next time. One more day of work this week and friday I have my bone scan, A little nervous for that but someone did tell me "It will feel better when its over, the stress is hardest waiting." So I will do my best to be strong untill then, Ill have my mom with me that day and I know I will be in all my families thoughts! After the bone scan I plan on going to Grant Macewan to get everything straightened up for school! Who knows maybe Ill even get to start sooner and wont have to go to work any more! yay what a joy that would be! Ok but I am off to bed now! good night all and will possibly update more tomorrow!!

Happy happy happy!

Ok so I said I would update and so I am!! But I'm keepin er short!! He is a very polite respectable handsome young man and I am excited to go out again and learn more!

Yup that's it! All u get to know! Hehehehehehe as for pains I feel pretty good a bit sore but not bad!!


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Days like today

Days like today don’t happen all the time,
I’m usually quite happy and really fine.
I enjoy the days where it doesn’t hurt to walk
When I’m in a good mood, and ok to talk.

But days like today, come very few.
When I hate being me and I could just start new.
Where I don’t have to worry about what’s going on
And feeling this ache doesn’t mean something’s wrong.

Today I am sad that I have Lupus,
And with and pray no one had to go through this.
That a cure was there for me to take a pill.
Instead of heading to more doctors for more crazy bills.

I know I shouldn’t worry about it at all.
But its hard when symptoms start staking ten feet tall.
When my hands swell to where I can’t even write.
Or when my legs hurt so much, I can’t sleep through the night.


When it hurts to see the sun shining down on me.
Or to walk to park just to try and sit under a tree.
To simply open a can of soda to get a simple drink.
Or when it hurts so bad, I can’t even think.

I know everyday is not always going to be like this.
I just wish the bad days, would be the ones I would miss.
When I just feel like sleeping and doing nothing more.
And shutting everyone out, and locking the door.

But the sun goes down and the moon shines bright.
While God helps me though another restless night.
And even though these days may come and come again.
I know He will be with me, always holding my hand.

Home is were I wanna be.

The past few nights have been restless. Sunday night did not fall asleep until 1 am only to be woken up at 5 to go to work, had a sore day, ached all over and just wanted sleep. Monday night I took a sleeping aid, it helped me fall asleep but was woken with pain throughout the night. Today my wrists and fingers feel as though they are on fire, someone get a hose and put it out please.!! (hey u gotta laugh sometimes!) I'm not very productive at work, got the tables and microwaves washed I guess that's all that really matters, I did try and mop, didn't work out. Now I'm hiding in the washcar for a few minuets to take a break and guess what! I found an app for my iPhone that let's me update my blog!! Henderson how I'm writing while at work. On another good note, guess who has a date! That's rught me!! Not mentioning his name but I like him very much, he makes me forget about everything that has happened this past couple of weeks and I feel healthier when around him! Wish me the best of luck! I deserve some lovin to!!! Ok so I guess it's time to suck up the pain, the work day is almost done. 3 hours out of 10 left!! Yay!!! And yes don't worry I'll update again later for all u curious wonders!!


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Lesson Learned

Today I've been very sore. I guess it could be from snowboarding yesterday, but now I know what to expect if I go again! Even though it was not a very good day I still managed to take my little man to get his hair cut and pick up my new meds. Work tomorrow should be interesting, I hope if I go to bed somewhat early it wont be so bad. There isnt really to much to write about today but I figured I should write something. I highly suggest if your reading this to go to the side of my blog and click on the spoon theory its a very good way to explain how I feel every day! Love you all!